The first part of this message is a paraphrased quote from Creflo Dollar’s teaching “Living Under the Correct Covenant” Part 4, and the next part is what God gave me from listening to part of the teaching.
It’s time to STOP pointing fingers and blaming people who you think caused your life to be messed up, and get a relationship with Jesus, and ALLOW Him to straighten your life out!! Creflo Dollar
Holding onto unforgiveness is keeping YOU in bondage; most times those people you blame for messing up your life, don’t have a clue they did anything to you, they have passed on, or know and just don’t care!! You cannot continue to live in bondage to those thoughts; turn that stuff over to God and He will help you forgive, and release those people from your soul!!
I know about being hurt at an early age by my parents, and it continued on throughout my adult life, with seven abusive marriages, betrayal, after betrayal by people who I thought were my Friends, mostly in the Church, betrayed by Pastors, my Family, etc. The majority of my life, I have lived in one pain after the next; the last major betrayal was in 2014, which I just wanted to die – I prayed to God for Him to take my life it was soooo bad!! It was like my heart was being ripped out of my chest!! It took me really up unto last year to get over that thing!! When I wanted to give up, God would not allow me to; Holy Spirit was pushing me from the inside out – giving me the strength to go on!!
Thank God He didn’t allow me to die; thank God Holy Spirit was giving me inner strength to go on; thank God that Jesus carried me when I was too weak to walk on my own!! God is the reason I am here today; God did this – God brought me out of that horrible pit of depression, and put NEW life in me, and gave me a will to live!! I owe God my life, and I give it to Him FREELY FOREVER!!
I don’t normally give my testimony, and this is a very, very small part of where God has brought me from, but this is what I feel God wants me to share now; someone needs to hear this!!
For so very long I was angry with my parents, especially my Mom, for abandoning me when I was around 2 years old; I felt neglected and unwanted!! But thank God for my Great, Great Grandmother, Lula McGrady, the one God told me in 2007 to name my Nonprofit after!! She took me in loved me, and raised me until I was 17 years old, and I moved from GA to FL to be with my Father! Grandmother Lula was my Mother, Father, Sister, Brother, was EVERYTHING to me!!
During those years after I moved to FL, I was hurt by a lot of people, including my parents even after I left GA, but God softened my heart for them; God let me knew they had issues themselves and they loved me the best way they could. I found out that people who we expect to love us, and they hurt us, they are not capable of loving us because they have issues themselves, and when we put pressure (they see it as being pressured) on them to love us, they act out even more – they don’t know how to love, nor know how to be responsible for someone else!
I kept marrying to find love, looking to people who I thought were my Friends for love, looking to Family, Church, and running here and there (carrying ALL that baggage from my early childhood) but could not find love – I search everywhere!! But I didn’t run to God; didn’t know God loved me – no strings attached!! I didn’t know I didn’t have to search for love, because God had loved me before I was born, He loved me when I was not thinking about Him, when I didn’t know Him!! Jesus died for me because He loved me; I didn’t have to make God love me, He loved me because He is my Father!! WOW!! What am AMAZING moment when I realized, God loved me!! And He wanted me to come to Him just like I was; God wanted me to stop running, and allow Him to heal me from the inside out!! God wanted a relationship with me, but I was too broken to see in; God ALWAYS had been with me but I didn’t know it!!
That’s what God wants for you; He loves you and wants a relationship with you and to heal you from the inside out!! Will you say yes to God, by accepting Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior right now? If you are born again already, do you have an intimate relationship with God? If you have backsilden, come home, God is waiting on you – Jesus has His arms opened wide to receive you!!
Now I know, I am loved by my Father God, and I now believe my Mother and natural Father, loved me too, they showed me the best way they could – they are both gone, and I miss them VERY MUCH😪😪!! I thank God for reconciling me to them – my Mother before she passed, and my Father after he passed – God helped me forgive them both!!
God has done a 360 degree turn around in my life; I have no bitterness in my heart against anyone who ever hurt me!! ALL glory goes to God, BUT I had to make a CHOICE to forgive everyone – forgiveness is a CHOICE, not a FEELING!!
Of course it was hard but the more I begin to listen to the Word, desiring a deeper relationship with God, allowing the love of God to transform me from the inside out, allowing Holy Spirit to take out the bitterness, and fill me with His Gifts, and guide me, I begin to see a difference in my life, the people I could not stand to be around, I begin to behave differently around them – I didn’t mind being around them!!
That’s Holy Spirit doing, cleaning my soul, changing old behaviors, from the inside out!! And me working with Holy Spirit by transforming my mind with the Word; I have to take time from everything else, and spend time in the Word, go to Church and listen to the Word, spend time with God!!
Once we accept Jesus as our personal Lord and Savior, instantly our spirit man is regenerated, but not our soul!! It’s up to us to renew our minds (soul which house our mind, will, emotions), with the Word of God, so the soul can come into agreement with the Holy Spirit living in our spirit man, and then the body will follow!
If you need a physical healing (you already healed by Jesus’ stripes in the spirit realm), to manifest your healing in your body, your soul MUST come into agreement with your spirit man (Holy Spirit), your soul MUST be convinced through the Word, that you are healed, which causes it to see itself as God see it – healed and restored – this is your real identity in Christ, you ARE the healed and restored of the Lord!! Jesus HAS ALREADY carried away from you, sin, sickness, disease, infirmities, pain, sorrow, guilt, shame, and EVERYTHING else that comes to steal, kill, and destroy from you or your Family!! YOU have authority to open your mouth and rebuke the devil, don’t sit passively by and allow the devil to destroy you!! If you have accepted Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior, the only power the devil has over you is what YOU give him!! KICK him OUT your life!!
I am soooo very thankful to God, for the Place of Worship He has assigned me to, Lisbon Church, and my Leaders Bishop Gary Greer, and Cheri Greer!! I am learning so much!! I thank God for all the other avenues of learning God has given me too, like being able to attend Pastor Pat Lawerence’s Church, Living Grace, on Tuesday nights, right now we are studying, “Spirit, Soul, and Body” by Andrew Wommack (here is Andrew’s site that has that teaching: https://www.awmi.net/popular/), and I am listening to Pastor Creflo Dollar’s teachings on Grace and the Covenants! I am saturating my soul with the Word, and allowing Holy Spirit to work in me!!
I also thank God for all the other Ministries and Leaders where I have been, all the way back to when I was a child growing up in Church!! No experience I have ever gone through, good or bad, is a waste; God has turned all that stuff around that was bad, for my good, and is now using it all, to help others!!
This is just a snippet of my life; of where God has brought me from and still bringing me through things – as they say, “I have left the station, but have not arrived!!” As you see, I know pain, betrayal, deception, and bitterness which is the principality (root cause) of unforgiveness (check out the teaching on “Principality of Bitterness” by Dr. Art Mathias, taken from his book, with his permission, “Biblical Foundations of Freedom Destroying Satan’s Lies With God’s Truth!”
http://www.recovery4abusedwoman.org/files/38488412.pdf
If Holy Spirit has brought someone to your mind as you were reading this that you need to forgive, do it. Whatever you are doing stop and forgive that person; God has already forgiven you, because Jesus took all your sins, upon Himself and delivered you from death (wages of sin is death)!!
God is NOT mad at you, He loves you and wants you TOTALLY free in your mind (soul) – you are free because of Jesus but as long as you decide to hold onto unforgiveness, you are holding your own self in bondage! Let them go! No, you are not excusing what they done, it was horrible, you are freeing yourself – remember, God has forgiven you because Jesus loved you so much, He died so you could live, so forgive your Brother, Sister, or who ever else you need to forgive!
Make a decision that this is the day, October 30, 2019, you are going to let go of old grudges, and allow Holy Spirit to saturate your being with the love of God; allow Holy Spirit to take all that STUFF out of your soul, as YOU surrender to Him, by FIRST surrendering to Jesus, and diving into the Word, so your mind (soul) can transformed so you can learn who your Heavenly Father is, who Jesus is, who Holy Spirit is, and who you are!! ALL things ARE possible with God, IF YOU only believe – believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, and you SHALL be saved!!
God’s Blessings to you and your Families!!
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